Frankly, Spencer is always at least moderately uncomfortable talking about his own feelings and problems, and would welcome anyone shifting the attention back onto themselves whenever it comes up. It's not healthy, but fighting it is incredibly difficult to him. He's been upended so thoroughly being here, having his whole perspective on reality combated, stripped of his social support in order to achieve something he thinks worth achieving-- saving Riley Jenkins. He wants to be here and he believes in doing what he thinks of as an experiment, but at the same time, he hadn't anticipated how terribly alone it leaves him to leave behind his team, and his mother.
It's in this uniquely vulnerable position that he's willing to reach out and take her hand, so long as attention isn't called to it. Spencer's always much better with contact that he's initiated. He can see it coming, so to speak.
As for feeling better because he talked about it-- maybe. He's not sure. Spencer is so discomfitted at opening up that the slow release of pressure from talking is almost unrecognizable. What does make him feel better is the sensation that someone is here, seeing him as a person, listening to him and not thinking he's crazy. Needless to say, he's sensitive about having his mental health questioned.
"It's extraordinary circumstances." His lips quirk at her, Reid's characteristic composed but good-natured expression. He speaks frankly, without self-pity. "I usually don't make friends. Uh, at all. And I wasn't expecting to here-- I've always thought my team was a fluke." Despite it being supposedly centered on interpersonal intimacy, Reid agreed to this with the full expectation that no one would be interested, or if they were, he wouldn't be. "I'm glad that I was wrong."
He's not sure he agrees with her characterization of him as particularly selfless, and he knows it's largely his fault they keep getting stuck on heavy topics. But Spencer isn't reluctant to hang onto people when he finds them-- if anything, he hangs on too hard, has a child-like inability to understand why people have to leave when they do. Finding a new friend, someone he knows he can see consistently rather than flying back to Quantico in the morning, isn't something he'll refuse, and he can recognize it when it happens.
Lydia's smile fades a little, not because she pities him — she doesn't really do pity very well now that she's had the experience of being on the receiving end of it — but because she knows that feeling. Her friends are her friends because they share something unique and terrifying. She hasn't been able to make a normal friend since the episode in the woods. That might've had more to do with being a laughingstock than her ability or lack thereof at making friends, but the lines blur; she isn't sure anymore.
"I'm glad you were wrong, too," she says sincerely giving his hand a little squeeze. If their conversation hadn't been so dark a moment ago, this is the part where she would've tried to gauge his reaction were she to kiss him. Given their conversation, it feels better staying right where she is. If there's a spark to be had between them at some point, she's sure they'll find it when the circumstances are better.
Lydia takes a deep breath. "I think for people like you and I — incredibly intelligent people — it's a little harder to make friends because you either have to be willing to dumb yourself down for them or prepare yourself for rejection because you're perceived as intimidating or condescending when you don't necessarily intend to be either." She smirks a little, about to let slip some self-depricating humor. "Or, you know, that's just what I tell myself so I don't feel so bad about the fact that nobody wants to befriend the crazy girl who spent two days naked in the woods in the middle winter with zero recollection of it. Good times. High school social ladder: knocked right out from under me. I never recovered." She smiles in spite of the overshare. It feels like a lifetime ago.
It hasn't even occurred to Spencer to think of kissing her at this point. But then, he's not exactly someone who would take the initiative.
Instead he laughs a little, in a quiet, unhumorous way, in shared commiseration. "I-- wow. I can identify with that." He doesn't offer his own story, but it's not hard to guess how much bullying he'd have received as a ten year old in high school. Spencer as a kid hadn't really learned any social graces yet, to boot, and was largely preoccupied with making sure no one figured out what was going on with his mom because they would take him away from her and put him in foster care. Or, more likely, convince his dad to take him, the worst of all possible outcomes-- his mom institutionalized, him in his dad's custody.
He squeezes her hand back unconsciously as he thinks of it. She's shared enough with him, and she's a friend and not someone from a case that he knows professionally, that Reid wants to answer that. And somehow, it just slips out, just like that.
"I'm weird even for my age group, and I'm never with my age group. I love my mom. She always encouraged me." Spencer swallows. "But she's very sick. She's been sick my whole life. Growing up, she was an unmedicated paranoid schizophrenic. If anyone found out, they'd have taken me away from her." He shrugs one shoulder. "I wasn't really thinking about making friends, and no one was thinking about making friends with me. Being an adult is-- a lot better."
His response is vague and understanding. Lydia doesn't take it literally because she really doubts he can identify with the exact circumstance, but someone with his intellect and who, Lydia suspects, is unwilling to water himself down to fit in would almost definitely have been bullied. Kids are cruel. Adults aren't always that much better. Her lopsided smile and sympathetic eyes should tell him that she knows what he means as she nods.
Spencer takes her by surprise again when he starts to talk about his mother. When the word schizophrenic passes his lips, her stomach knots up with guilt, because she'd been so adamant in insisting that she isn't a schizophrenic and suddenly she's wondering if she'd been unwittingly offending him with that vehemence.
Only allowing herself a few seconds to feel that way, Lydia pulls her focus and settles it back on Spencer, her brow creasing slightly with concern and empathy. He's right. Any competent child protection agency would've ripped him from her care without a question if she wasn't medicating herself to at least try to treat the illness.
"I wouldn't have been, either," she says with soft understanding in her voice. "It would've been the last thing on my mind. But I'm glad you're in a place where you can make friends, now. That's entirely selfish, but all the same," she says with a little smile. Then, she lifts her coffee to her lips, taking a sip. She does not, however, let go of his hand and she won't unless he gives her a reason to think he'd prefer it.
He definitely wasn't offended by her insistence that she's not schizophrenic. Try questioning Reid on his mental health sometime, and see how vociferous his objections are.
He appreciates her not making some statement that he should've been taken away. Years past as it is, Spencer's throat always clenches when he admits this, too conditioned to keep it to himself. Truthfully, he's largely forgotten the hand-holding; there's no one to observe and she's not calling attention to it, so it prevents him from becoming self-conscious. Spencer is extremely private-- but they're in his own apartment, as private as it gets. He can afford to reach out a little in a protected, closed environment like this.
"It's not totally selfish." He feels like he's run out of steam, all of a sudden. One bought of openness and Spencer's drained. "I uh, just didn't want to feel like you were a victim I was interviewing. It's supposed to be more even when it's, you know." An actual friend. He's not totally dense about how this works, just awkward and ungainly.
The change in him is almost night and day and Lydia doesn't miss it. Her smile softens and there's empathy in her eyes again when she looks back at him. The fact of the matter is that it's exhausting to share uncomfortable truths with people one doesn't know very well. It's exhausting because it's terrifying and relieving all rolled into one, so she understands. She, too, is feeling the fatigue of sharing such darkness with someone starting to settle into her bones a little. It's like the caffeine in the coffee is lost in the comfortable warming sensation that only adds to her feeling more drained than probably she actually is.
"It's okay, I didn't," she promises. Even before he'd said anything about himself, she hadn't felt like a victim. Lydia doesn't feel like a victim anymore, ever. She's taken the steps mentally and physically to protect herself from that feeling and take her strength back from those who'd once wished to rob her of it. "But yeah. I know," she adds with a nod and another small smile.
And, giving his hand another squeeze as she lifts the coffee cup and drains the last of hers, Lydia looks him in the eye. "You're stuck with me now, you know almost all my secrets," she says, only half-joking, lips turned up on a crooked little grin.
He finishes his own coffee and finally disentangles his hand from hers, a trifle self-conscious now that he has to pull away. Spencer shifts his feet back down to the floor like a proper adult, but it's only a prelude to standing, which he needs both hands for when one is already occupied.
"Almost all?" He takes the easy opening there. "I have tons more." That's actually the truth, since he hadn't even told the whole story behind Riley Jenkins. He hadn't mentioned his father at all. But there's also just a glimmer of sass behind that, his sense of humor at last showing through. Spencer has to feel pretty comfortable to tease people. It's easier for him to signal acceptance that way than overtly-- It's alright, I don't have anyone else here; you'll be stuck with me, too.
Getting himself to his feet, he reaches out to accept her mug in the silent dance of host-and-guest.
Spencer finally lets go of her hand and suddenly hers feels cold without the opposing body heat of another hand, so she moves it to curl around her empty cup because it's still a little warm. Her eyes follow him as he gets to his feet and she smiles a little. "Almost," she says. It isn't true; there's a lot of secrets there, but he's aware of a lot of the ones she holds closest to her heart.
But the smile turns into a smirk in the wake of his comment and she has to laugh a little as she hands her cup to him. "Thank you. I guess I've got some work to do chipping away at that, then, huh?" she asks, the joke clear in the amusement in her voice.
To be honest, she's okay with never knowing Spencer's secrets, if he never wants to share them. Having spent a portion of her time being mind-controlled by someone else has really given Lydia a lot of perspective about mental and emotional boundaries. She'd never really thought about it before and now it's reflex. She can't decide whether that's good or bad, some days.
"You're taking all this information really well, you know. Most people would rather pick it apart or disbelieve it until they can see it with their own eyes," she calls after him, shifting on the couch so that she can lean on the back of it, chin hooking at the top of the couch so she can look over the back of it at him. "I'm not complaining, I'm just saying."
Spencer takes their mugs and limps his way into the kitchen, the limp as minimized as he can make it out of pure, rote habit. As a member of a team of profilers, he's pretty okay with not knowing someone's every secret, too. They learn enough people's life stories that it effectively cures them of needing to know every detail of those around them. What people show you is just as important as what they're hiding.
"I'm suspending a lot of disbelief to be here at all," he informs her factually. The apartment's small enough that it's easy speaking distance from the kitchen. "Your story's frankly small time in comparison. Also, if you are delusional, it would be both cruel and pointless to try to argue with you about it, so it really wouldn't do anything for me. Most people just haven't encountered real delusions before."
There's a short pause as he rummages around. "Do you want more coffee, or hot chocolate?" Because he totally has a sweet tooth.
Some people might have been offended by his comment about her story being small time comparatively, but Lydia finds it oddly comforting. It's nice to know that her tale isn't earth shattering for a change. "That's true, but a lot of people don't think about that, yeah exactly."
Lydia chews her bottom lip a little and pushes herself to her feet to stretch a bit. "I'll take a hot chocolate and then I should probably give you some time to settle in. God knows I've got some settling in to do, myself," she replies with a smile, sinking back down onto the couch again. It's more comfortable than it looks and she makes a mental note to see if her couch is the same way. She's willing to bet that it is.
"I have a friend who might be able to help with the pain in your leg, Spence," she speaks up. "I'd have to ask him; I don't want to just offer his abilities out without asking him first, but...would you want me to ask...?"
Spencer is exacting enough to mix some hot water with the chocolate powder before adding the milk, so it doesn't clump, which means he has a couple extra steps to go through as he prepares their hot chocolates, rummaging around in his kitchen. He's still getting familiar with it. He'd say having someone over is helping him acclimate, but he never has anyone over at home, so it's just reinforcing how very odd it is to be here.
Not bad, but-- odd. Like that offer.
He's quiet for a long moment, ostensibly busy. "Um. Are there any side effects? And is it anything more unbelievable than what you've already told me?" That's a glimmer of humor, though he does mean it sincerely. Having the unbelievable applied to himself directly is a whole other ball game. "Don't go out of your way for me. I'm doing fine."
Reid has been known to say that while suffering from crippling narcotics withdrawal, but in this case he genuinely isn't that poorly off. He's past the crutches stage so he's feeling pretty good about his progress.
Lydia laughs a little, shaking her head. Those are fair questions. "A little more unbelievable, maybe, but the only side effect is not being in pain for a while," she replies. "It's called pain transference. He could siphon the pain out of your leg and into him, but he heals stupid fast, so he'd only feel it for a few minutes, at most."
That's not necessarily true; she doesn't know how much pain Spencer is actually in. If he's in significantly more pain than he lets on, it could take Scott significantly longer to heal, but that's all hypothetical anyway, because she still has to ask Scott and she's only going to do that with Spencer's blessing.
Which, she can see, she isn't really going to get in so many words. It wouldn't be going out of her way, but she can tell when she's being politely dismissed, so Lydia decides to let it go. "Okay. Well, if you change your mind." She gives him a small smile as a sort of peace offering.
It's just a lot for him at once. Reid isn't exactly cooperative about accepting help or treatment on a good day, and although he does what he needs to to recover and he doesn't exacerbate anything, adding a layer of weird supernaturalness to it doesn't make him eager to experiment. Or to put Lydia in an awkward position with potentially asking one of her friends to expose his secrets on Spencer's behalf, when he knows he'll heal just fine with time.
His doctors said he was lucky he didn't have to amputate. As far as he's concerned, the hard, scary part is over, and now he just has slow, self-inflicted physical therapy to endure for another couple months.
He appreciates her wordless acceptance of his dismissal a lot more than he lets on, even as he shoots her a furrowed look over the top of his pass-through counter. "Pain transference sounds like it could be dangerous. Even if he does heal it." If it were Spencer that had it, he'd go around taking on all kinds of things he couldn't handle, because he just couldn't help himself. Maybe Lydia's friend is smarter than that.
"Not that I'm saying I'd make smart decisions with it." He comes out of the kitchen with new mugs in each hand, offering her one.
Lydia gives a little nod, coupled with a thoughtful facial shrug, because she's heard that, but she doesn't really have any firsthand experience with it, obviously. All she knows in that particular vein is that Derek Hale used to be an Alpha and then Cora got really sick and now he isn't. Whether the two are connected, she doesn't know for sure, but she'd be willing to put money on it, if she were a betting woman. She knows that the spark gave Scott a lot of strength he hadn't necessarily known he'd had before.
"Yeah, it probably could be. Admittedly, I don't know much about it. I won't bring it up to him unless you decide it's bad enough that you'd like to see about taking the edge off. He's...kind of the helping people type, so I don't see him saying no, but..."
Lydia shrugs and her voice trails off. "Consider the subject dropped if you prefer it that way. Thank you," she says, taking the new mug from him and settling back into her more comfortable position on the couch, the position in which one of her legs is curled beneath herself and she's leaned into the corner of the sofa. "I'm still trying to decide on a science, but I think I'm going to take your suggestion and go to classes here for a while. Just to keep my mind sharp," she says. "I might ask around."
He gives her an awkward smile at being called out so directly. "Um, guilty as charged. I'll eventually adjust to being here, I swear." Just, you know, maybe not on week one. Week two is possible. Spencer is resilient but he's also an inflexible literalist. If he were in more dire straits, he wouldn't be foolish enough to refuse help, but it's decidedly non-dire.
Taking his seat next to her again, this time with less of an obvious personal space bubble now that they've held hands, he goes on, "If you're used to being in class, being out of it for too long will probably be boring. You might as well try something. Or a few things."
He's definitely going to need to do an array of things to keep himself busy enough to be satisfied.
Shaking her head, Lydia holds up a hand and dismisses the guilty plea. "Don't worry, I won't hold it against you. I've been there. It took a while for me to wrap my head around everything back home, and that was just stuff from my world. You're having to do that times every other world there is besides your own. That's a lot. I don't know if I could do it if I wasn't already used to weird," she says honestly.
She smiles a little, mostly to herself, when she notices that he puts less space between them when he sits again and Lydia takes a sip of the hot chocolate, a very small sip to keep from burning her lips in case it's hotter than anticipated. "That's sort of what I got to thinking," she confesses. "I can only read so many books before I'll need other stimulation. Besides, it's not like the classes here will matter, so if I get bored with something, I can bounce to another field of study, probably."
At least, she would think it would work that way. She's sort of banking on it so that she can hopefully get a plethora of new information before heading back home. She might not get to keep the college credits, but Lydia's hoping that they can't take the knowledge away from her.
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It's in this uniquely vulnerable position that he's willing to reach out and take her hand, so long as attention isn't called to it. Spencer's always much better with contact that he's initiated. He can see it coming, so to speak.
As for feeling better because he talked about it-- maybe. He's not sure. Spencer is so discomfitted at opening up that the slow release of pressure from talking is almost unrecognizable. What does make him feel better is the sensation that someone is here, seeing him as a person, listening to him and not thinking he's crazy. Needless to say, he's sensitive about having his mental health questioned.
"It's extraordinary circumstances." His lips quirk at her, Reid's characteristic composed but good-natured expression. He speaks frankly, without self-pity. "I usually don't make friends. Uh, at all. And I wasn't expecting to here-- I've always thought my team was a fluke." Despite it being supposedly centered on interpersonal intimacy, Reid agreed to this with the full expectation that no one would be interested, or if they were, he wouldn't be. "I'm glad that I was wrong."
He's not sure he agrees with her characterization of him as particularly selfless, and he knows it's largely his fault they keep getting stuck on heavy topics. But Spencer isn't reluctant to hang onto people when he finds them-- if anything, he hangs on too hard, has a child-like inability to understand why people have to leave when they do. Finding a new friend, someone he knows he can see consistently rather than flying back to Quantico in the morning, isn't something he'll refuse, and he can recognize it when it happens.
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"I'm glad you were wrong, too," she says sincerely giving his hand a little squeeze. If their conversation hadn't been so dark a moment ago, this is the part where she would've tried to gauge his reaction were she to kiss him. Given their conversation, it feels better staying right where she is. If there's a spark to be had between them at some point, she's sure they'll find it when the circumstances are better.
Lydia takes a deep breath. "I think for people like you and I — incredibly intelligent people — it's a little harder to make friends because you either have to be willing to dumb yourself down for them or prepare yourself for rejection because you're perceived as intimidating or condescending when you don't necessarily intend to be either." She smirks a little, about to let slip some self-depricating humor. "Or, you know, that's just what I tell myself so I don't feel so bad about the fact that nobody wants to befriend the crazy girl who spent two days naked in the woods in the middle winter with zero recollection of it. Good times. High school social ladder: knocked right out from under me. I never recovered." She smiles in spite of the overshare. It feels like a lifetime ago.
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Instead he laughs a little, in a quiet, unhumorous way, in shared commiseration. "I-- wow. I can identify with that." He doesn't offer his own story, but it's not hard to guess how much bullying he'd have received as a ten year old in high school. Spencer as a kid hadn't really learned any social graces yet, to boot, and was largely preoccupied with making sure no one figured out what was going on with his mom because they would take him away from her and put him in foster care. Or, more likely, convince his dad to take him, the worst of all possible outcomes-- his mom institutionalized, him in his dad's custody.
He squeezes her hand back unconsciously as he thinks of it. She's shared enough with him, and she's a friend and not someone from a case that he knows professionally, that Reid wants to answer that. And somehow, it just slips out, just like that.
"I'm weird even for my age group, and I'm never with my age group. I love my mom. She always encouraged me." Spencer swallows. "But she's very sick. She's been sick my whole life. Growing up, she was an unmedicated paranoid schizophrenic. If anyone found out, they'd have taken me away from her." He shrugs one shoulder. "I wasn't really thinking about making friends, and no one was thinking about making friends with me. Being an adult is-- a lot better."
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Spencer takes her by surprise again when he starts to talk about his mother. When the word schizophrenic passes his lips, her stomach knots up with guilt, because she'd been so adamant in insisting that she isn't a schizophrenic and suddenly she's wondering if she'd been unwittingly offending him with that vehemence.
Only allowing herself a few seconds to feel that way, Lydia pulls her focus and settles it back on Spencer, her brow creasing slightly with concern and empathy. He's right. Any competent child protection agency would've ripped him from her care without a question if she wasn't medicating herself to at least try to treat the illness.
"I wouldn't have been, either," she says with soft understanding in her voice. "It would've been the last thing on my mind. But I'm glad you're in a place where you can make friends, now. That's entirely selfish, but all the same," she says with a little smile. Then, she lifts her coffee to her lips, taking a sip. She does not, however, let go of his hand and she won't unless he gives her a reason to think he'd prefer it.
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He appreciates her not making some statement that he should've been taken away. Years past as it is, Spencer's throat always clenches when he admits this, too conditioned to keep it to himself. Truthfully, he's largely forgotten the hand-holding; there's no one to observe and she's not calling attention to it, so it prevents him from becoming self-conscious. Spencer is extremely private-- but they're in his own apartment, as private as it gets. He can afford to reach out a little in a protected, closed environment like this.
"It's not totally selfish." He feels like he's run out of steam, all of a sudden. One bought of openness and Spencer's drained. "I uh, just didn't want to feel like you were a victim I was interviewing. It's supposed to be more even when it's, you know." An actual friend. He's not totally dense about how this works, just awkward and ungainly.
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"It's okay, I didn't," she promises. Even before he'd said anything about himself, she hadn't felt like a victim. Lydia doesn't feel like a victim anymore, ever. She's taken the steps mentally and physically to protect herself from that feeling and take her strength back from those who'd once wished to rob her of it. "But yeah. I know," she adds with a nod and another small smile.
And, giving his hand another squeeze as she lifts the coffee cup and drains the last of hers, Lydia looks him in the eye. "You're stuck with me now, you know almost all my secrets," she says, only half-joking, lips turned up on a crooked little grin.
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"Almost all?" He takes the easy opening there. "I have tons more." That's actually the truth, since he hadn't even told the whole story behind Riley Jenkins. He hadn't mentioned his father at all. But there's also just a glimmer of sass behind that, his sense of humor at last showing through. Spencer has to feel pretty comfortable to tease people. It's easier for him to signal acceptance that way than overtly-- It's alright, I don't have anyone else here; you'll be stuck with me, too.
Getting himself to his feet, he reaches out to accept her mug in the silent dance of host-and-guest.
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But the smile turns into a smirk in the wake of his comment and she has to laugh a little as she hands her cup to him. "Thank you. I guess I've got some work to do chipping away at that, then, huh?" she asks, the joke clear in the amusement in her voice.
To be honest, she's okay with never knowing Spencer's secrets, if he never wants to share them. Having spent a portion of her time being mind-controlled by someone else has really given Lydia a lot of perspective about mental and emotional boundaries. She'd never really thought about it before and now it's reflex. She can't decide whether that's good or bad, some days.
"You're taking all this information really well, you know. Most people would rather pick it apart or disbelieve it until they can see it with their own eyes," she calls after him, shifting on the couch so that she can lean on the back of it, chin hooking at the top of the couch so she can look over the back of it at him. "I'm not complaining, I'm just saying."
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"I'm suspending a lot of disbelief to be here at all," he informs her factually. The apartment's small enough that it's easy speaking distance from the kitchen. "Your story's frankly small time in comparison. Also, if you are delusional, it would be both cruel and pointless to try to argue with you about it, so it really wouldn't do anything for me. Most people just haven't encountered real delusions before."
There's a short pause as he rummages around. "Do you want more coffee, or hot chocolate?" Because he totally has a sweet tooth.
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Lydia chews her bottom lip a little and pushes herself to her feet to stretch a bit. "I'll take a hot chocolate and then I should probably give you some time to settle in. God knows I've got some settling in to do, myself," she replies with a smile, sinking back down onto the couch again. It's more comfortable than it looks and she makes a mental note to see if her couch is the same way. She's willing to bet that it is.
"I have a friend who might be able to help with the pain in your leg, Spence," she speaks up. "I'd have to ask him; I don't want to just offer his abilities out without asking him first, but...would you want me to ask...?"
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Not bad, but-- odd. Like that offer.
He's quiet for a long moment, ostensibly busy. "Um. Are there any side effects? And is it anything more unbelievable than what you've already told me?" That's a glimmer of humor, though he does mean it sincerely. Having the unbelievable applied to himself directly is a whole other ball game. "Don't go out of your way for me. I'm doing fine."
Reid has been known to say that while suffering from crippling narcotics withdrawal, but in this case he genuinely isn't that poorly off. He's past the crutches stage so he's feeling pretty good about his progress.
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That's not necessarily true; she doesn't know how much pain Spencer is actually in. If he's in significantly more pain than he lets on, it could take Scott significantly longer to heal, but that's all hypothetical anyway, because she still has to ask Scott and she's only going to do that with Spencer's blessing.
Which, she can see, she isn't really going to get in so many words. It wouldn't be going out of her way, but she can tell when she's being politely dismissed, so Lydia decides to let it go. "Okay. Well, if you change your mind." She gives him a small smile as a sort of peace offering.
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His doctors said he was lucky he didn't have to amputate. As far as he's concerned, the hard, scary part is over, and now he just has slow, self-inflicted physical therapy to endure for another couple months.
He appreciates her wordless acceptance of his dismissal a lot more than he lets on, even as he shoots her a furrowed look over the top of his pass-through counter. "Pain transference sounds like it could be dangerous. Even if he does heal it." If it were Spencer that had it, he'd go around taking on all kinds of things he couldn't handle, because he just couldn't help himself. Maybe Lydia's friend is smarter than that.
"Not that I'm saying I'd make smart decisions with it." He comes out of the kitchen with new mugs in each hand, offering her one.
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"Yeah, it probably could be. Admittedly, I don't know much about it. I won't bring it up to him unless you decide it's bad enough that you'd like to see about taking the edge off. He's...kind of the helping people type, so I don't see him saying no, but..."
Lydia shrugs and her voice trails off. "Consider the subject dropped if you prefer it that way. Thank you," she says, taking the new mug from him and settling back into her more comfortable position on the couch, the position in which one of her legs is curled beneath herself and she's leaned into the corner of the sofa. "I'm still trying to decide on a science, but I think I'm going to take your suggestion and go to classes here for a while. Just to keep my mind sharp," she says. "I might ask around."
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Taking his seat next to her again, this time with less of an obvious personal space bubble now that they've held hands, he goes on, "If you're used to being in class, being out of it for too long will probably be boring. You might as well try something. Or a few things."
He's definitely going to need to do an array of things to keep himself busy enough to be satisfied.
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She smiles a little, mostly to herself, when she notices that he puts less space between them when he sits again and Lydia takes a sip of the hot chocolate, a very small sip to keep from burning her lips in case it's hotter than anticipated. "That's sort of what I got to thinking," she confesses. "I can only read so many books before I'll need other stimulation. Besides, it's not like the classes here will matter, so if I get bored with something, I can bounce to another field of study, probably."
At least, she would think it would work that way. She's sort of banking on it so that she can hopefully get a plethora of new information before heading back home. She might not get to keep the college credits, but Lydia's hoping that they can't take the knowledge away from her.